I wish I'm 19 Again 'n' Stay there 4 Ever..!

Every day I definitely feel one thing, I wish I'm 19 again.

Not just because I've enjoyed too much at that time,

Not because I've no responsibilities,

Not because I was in love,

Not because I was in School,


Only because I was exposed to this world and started Exploring the things. I've seen many new things which my dad didn't see in his childhood, I did the things which my mom didn't even imagine she could do in her whole life.

I remember few words of my childhood...!

They were the ending days of Year 1999 and ending days of 20th Century. My Friends and few other people were feeling themselves as lucky to see both the centuries in their lives.

I feel sorry for people who born before inventing a TV that they couldn't see the wonder which they never ever thought of.

When I came to know about the CD (Compact Disc), DVD's were in market. When I started using DVD's Flash Drives (Thumb Drive) are so popular. When I had full of Pen Drives in my pocket, Passports (Portable Hard Drives) are handy.

We never know something else will come and knock these Passports off.

Things are changing very rapidly, we need to get update to them every time else we will stay back in race of this life.

Let me give you an example which make more sense....!

I worked with some guys who were much much older to me. They started working in IT (Information Technology) when I don't even know about IT.

In their times, there wasn't the most popular ORKUT. It's been 6 to 7 years that Google launched ORKUT but they didn't have an account yet.

When I told them about this they told that they haven't heard about it. When I shown them that Damn thing, they were surprised as well as confused in its usage.

(** I don't mean having an ORKUT Id is a great thing I'm just showing an example**)

Let me tell you one more thing about them,

( ** I don't want to list their names here**)

Generally we all people watch all kinds of movies on Internet, but these guys still don't know that there are some websites which will offer us to watch movies freely. They buy the DVD's or they wait till that movie releases in nearby theater.

I've seen couple of people who still use some cards which will cost too much to call India.

I am not making them fools here, but I am Scared of few things.

Lets say in 10 years of coming future, there may be things which will be better than this time. Who knows whether I'll be updated to them or not? Some junior or my children or youngsters may laugh by saying " What..! You didn't even know about this..?"

Yes, I may need to pass through this kind of situation.

Well, I'm not scared of that humiliation rather I'm worried about myself how would I be?

My Dad can't operate a MP3 Player, He can't access Internet, He can't open a game from computer and play by himself.
He likes all these things, he is trying very hard to learn them however he is still not up to the mark.

Well, there may be something new which I don't know how to use it in future.

I've started looking at this world and its technology, its people from 19. I explored many things between 19 and 24.

Now suddenly I became so stubborn in life. Things got changed. I am loosing contact with my friends, everyone are busy in their lives. There are no one who can share things with me.

I'm just implementing the things what I learned in between 19 and 24. I know only those things which were happened in between that age.

I'm not learning any new things now...!

Now I'm updating only software updates that too SQL Server updates.

I know very few things , if I need to watch telugu or Hindi Movie I'll go to Videomasti, If I need English Movie I'll go to OVGuide or FreeSports4u. For Cricket free live streaming I'll google for sometime If I don't find any thing I'll buy. I'll go to Cricinfo for a while and read some articles there I'll play fantasy cricket for a while and I'll play StickCricket

All these things I came to know while I was in my Masters. After masters I never had a chance to explore something interesting. When I get bored with Stick Cricket, I don't know what to do.

I used to be updated with all the new technologies in the market while I was in Masters.

Now, I know only them....


That is the reason I wish I'm 19 again and stay there for ever to get updated with this world, and never feel myself that I'm too late.

Yeah, I know many of you say we still can update with the world...


I don't think this is possible without friends, and becoz of these busy jobs and busy life there is no free time to spend with friends. Only way is to call them and have some chit chat.


Many of you may oppose me, but I love to be a 19 Yr guy...!

When will I stop dreaming...??

It’s been 8993 days I am here on this earth (till August 03, 2009 CST). I was a typical middle class man in all these days. I was always hiding my desires inside my heart. I had a dream from my childhood when I can’t ask my dad to buy me an Ice-cream more than once in a month, “I’ll study well, I’ll get a good job and I’ll earn lot of money when I grew older and then I’ll buy everything I need and I desire”. I am about to be 25 yrs old in a couple of months, and this world already started calling me as a big man who grew older, but I am still dreaming the same which I dreamed at the age of 10. I studied OK, got a job still I am in the same place where I thought I left it. If average life span of a human being is 60 years, then I’ll live for 21915 days, among them almost half of them spent already by dreaming the future.

When will I live without dreaming? Or when will I stop dreaming and accomplish my dreams?
well, I have no answer to this question.
May be I need to Dream again to answer this question…!!
Working on Monthly salary is not looking as the feasible way to pass through my dreams, but what can I do other than this? If I knew the solution I would not have wrote this.
From the last week of the month, my eyes will start staring at the calendar for the 1st of next month, becoz the weight of my wallet gets credited by then. When I realize the 1st week of the month, I don’t even feel happy since all the credit card bills, mortgages, loans, phone bills, room rents, grocery bills will come in front of me and remind me about my credit history if I fail to pay them. When I start calculating all of them, I notice “I am out of money”. I’ll keep about 200 to 300$ aside, since there is still many days left in that month.
What in this world a man can do with 200 bucks?
I can’t go to lunch with my colleagues, since I know I need to pay for my lunch which costs an amount which looks very huge since I have only 200 bucks left in wallet. Luckily I don’t have a car; otherwise it would have been difficult for me to pay the EMI of the car, and Insurance of the car. All these 200 remaining bucks would have been spent on Gas. However am I really a lucky man without a car? I don’t think so..!
This remains a dream to me. I don’t know how long I need to wait to have one.

I’m paying the credit cards from almost about 2 years, but to my surprise the credit remains same. I’m paying my student loan from almost about a year; it still looks like a big mountain. God damn, when can I pay all of them?
May be I need to dream for a year or two to get out of these credits.

Sometimes may be once or twice in a year, I’ll save about 1000$...When I feel, I am saving money I’ll be out of the project for couple of months and I’ll use all of those savings and I’ll be out of the money again. I am 25 (24.85 exactly) but till now didn’t really saved 25 bucks.

What time I’ll come out of this waiting for 1st of the Month?
Umm.., I think I’ll never get out of these problems if I work as a software contractor. In fact people in here will assume that Contractors are one among the rich people and they’ll earn lots of lots of money. They don’t know what we get. We get nothing…literally we get shit. The Middle men (brokers to be exact) will be rich than the actual. Well, I can’t really blame these brokers since we don’t get the shit I was talking about without them.

Man what kind of life is this..???
Sometimes I want to be a “GHAJINI” who forgets everything and remembers only 1st of the month.
I’ve seen my dad thinking like me. He has seen his dad thinking like him. May my son will see me thinking like him. When will we get rich…??
You see, I am dreaming again…!!
I know there are millions of people who live their lives in dreaming. There are so many others in this world who don’t even dare to dream.
I heard so many people saying, it is easy to live as poor and easy to live as rich but always difficult to be a middle class man. When comes to work, my client may or may not be happy, middle man is always happy and I will never be happy. Why this thing is happening when comes to work.
I work hard, both client and middle man are rich and I’ll be in middleclass.
So, if you can invest some money, you may be rich…!
When can we Invest money…??
Only Investors family becoming investors and workers who work for them are always becoming workers.
I think this world may have been created as 2 types of people, one who invests, second who work.
I don’t know whether I am lucky or not to born as Worker.
I heard some of my friends saying that we are really lucky to be born as middle class men, since rich people can’t really live peacefully. Well, I never been rich so I don’t know what mental tensions they have but I’ve been in middle class I know the peacefulness of this. I never seen a poor man’s feelings but I can understand them and I feel little lucky to be as middleclass.

My question always be same,
When can one become rich? Particularly when will this middleclass life ends?
May be never…, since we never realize that we become rich when we buy a car, we never realize when we own a duplex. I believe God forgot to add some compromise and some satisfaction to the Human beings while he is manufacturing.

Wait a second..!!
Did anyone understand what I am trying to tell…? Oops, I don’t know what I am talking about (Ha ha ) , I’ll continue this once I figure out what exactly I am trying to tell.