Do you live in the past, present or the future?

When I started blogging, I had no idea about what to write.  Whenever I was involved in some discussion with my friends, I had a habit of arguing. After watching me closely one of my friends suggested me why don’t I blog my views. Then I questioned myself why should I be? No one pays me to write. No one gives a damn either. Or maybe they do. It’s not that there aren’t things/topics to write on. There are. But does my opinion matter? Do my thoughts count? Who am I anyway? Or who do I think I am?

“Either you are thinking about what happened in the past or worrying about what will happen in the future. You forget to consider the present. That’s the only trouble with you.”

That’s what my friends told me few days back… Hate it though I may, he is right.

    I don’t regret my past, but I do think if I could have taken some decisions differently, done things another way.

       Perhaps the biggest past factor with me is thinking about people. I don’t exactly nurse a grudge, but I find it hard to forget. I might think I have forgiven, but then at unexpected moments I realize I don’t know how to forgive. It all comes back.

      The future thrills me and scares me to death. I fear losing what I have, but even more than that, I fear that I might stop appreciating what I have. I’ve run from jobs, relationships, people… What if I do it again? My friend calls it my “second guessing streak”.

      He says I think negative thoughts and either worry myself trying to prevent it or worse, get fatalistic and make it happen.

I can perhaps stop thinking about the past. However the future…? It confuses me, when people say “live in the present, don’t think about the future”. Will not our actions today affect our tomorrow?

Do you live in the past, present or the future?

When someone fell in LOVE? and What is Love?

("Many of us say, “no one can define what love is”. I think we can define what love is and what one will do when they are in love but we don’t know how and when it starts in one person. Well, I guess I know when it starts or how it starts.That is the Intention of this post.")


I’ll stay at signal light when it is Red by believing that it will turn green soon. It’s every ones belief that Red light will turn green after sometime.
While going to bed, I believe that I’ll wake up on next day.
Everyone has some believes, some superstitions, and some disbelieves.

I heard some people saying Love is also a belief! I always wonder how love can be a belief.

If Love is a belief, then what type of belief and what should we believe?

How “belief” makes someone love you?

Let’s say a boy loves a girl, and how "belief" made the boy to love that girl?

After looking at the girl for the first time,

Did he believe that that girl will stay with him all the time and she won’t go away with anyone else?
  Or
Did he believe that that girl will stay as beautiful as she is at the time he is loving?
 Or
Did he believe that that girl will help him out all the time throughout his life?

I don't think a boy will think of all these things when he see's a girl for the first time.

For an instance, let’s say a girl loves a boy then How belief led to her love?

When she saw a boy for the first time,

Does she need to believe that the boy will take care of her or not? Or that boy will earn money or not?

If she believes in all these things then that will be called as Security not Love.

If Love starts with belief then I have to say that belief starts only when you feel secure. If this is true, then Love starts only when a girl or boy feels secure of each other.


What do you think!! Does love starts with security?

If it is true, I love Illeana. Can anyone tell what type of security or belief making me to love Illeana? I know nothing about her, I never felt secure about her still I love her. Not only me but many people of Andhra Pradesh love Ileana.

What making them love Ileana?

Certainly, it’s not belief or Security.

Then what is Love?

I've seen Karenna Kapoor Saying Love is Respect.

I ain’t understood how Love is respect? If it is respect, then how it starts in between men and women?
What type of Respect makes love between two souls?

I respect all women, but I don’t love all the women right? I respect Kalpana Chawla’s courage, her dedications but I don’t love her. I respect Mother Terissa’s views but I don’t love her either.

I respect all the guests come to our home, I’ll be with them to help every their need during their stay, still there is no guarantee that I love them.

I don’t agree with the statement “Love is Respect”.

Then, Love is not secure feeling, Love is not Respect, Love is not belief then what love is?

I've seen many telugu movies stating that Love is sacrifice.

If Love is sacrifice, then only sacrifices should create love in human beings but its not true, since I love my friends though they don’t sacrifice anything for me.

Gandhi and many national leaders sacrificed their lives for Indian Independence. We all respect them, but I guess none of us want to marry them.

I conclude by saying that love is not a belief, not a respect, not a secure feeling, not a sacrifice. All these are qualities of Love.

When you love someone you’ll respect their ideas, you’ll respect their views, and you’ll respect their beliefs.

When you love someone you’ll believe in them. You believe that they’ll stay with you in your good, bad, happy, sorrows. You believe that they share everything. You believe that they make you happy.
When you love someone you’ll sacrifice your desires for your beloved.

All these are qualities of love but these won’t let your love started. In other words I say these are the responsibilities when you love someone.

We can see all these qualities in our parents.

In this world I guess the only love which is not polluted is parent’s love. They love us whatever we are. They’ll sacrifice many of their desires to make us happy. They’ll respect your views and they always believe in you though you fail every time.

So, we can say love is combination of respecting each other qualities though they are good or bad, believing in each other though they fail every their step, sacrificing their desires and activities to keep their beloved happy and making their beloved feel secure in their company.

Many of us say, “no one can define what love is”. I think we can explain what love is and what one will do when they are in love but we don’t know how and when it starts in one person. Well, I guess I know when it starts or how it starts.

Before explaining my view, may I ask you a question?

Why do you love your parents?
Simple answer is, they gave us birth. They shown us this world, they gave us this life.

Why our parents love us?
Straight forward answer is, we are the icons of their love. We are someone came through them.

Why do you love your siblings?
Since they share the same blood of our parents and they live with us together.

Do you love your relatives?
I don’t think someone will love their relatives until and unless they are very good in nature and helped them getting through some issues. Still I don’t think there will be some true love exists with relatives. However, we respect our relatives since they are related to us.

I love my Grand Father (Mom’s dad), since he used tell me many stories in my child hood and he used to take me to his village in holidays, he used to give me some pocket money.
Whereas I don’t really love my Dad’s dad since he was never really cared me as my other grand Father.
So, I guess there should be some kind of reason to love other than our family members (what I mean by my family is my parents and my siblings).

Then how and why one will love a girl or boy who is not related to them by any means?

What I mean by this question is why a girl loves a boy or a boy loves a girl without any relation?
(This is my main concern of this blog entry)


I loved many girls in my life. I loved Illeana (Telugu Actress); I loved Anushka (Telugu Actress); I loved my school mate. I loved my college mate etc…
I loved all these girls with all different reasons.
Before telling them let me add some philosophy in this blog entry.
God created two types of People. One is Men and the other is Women. He created women as men’s companion (Or Men as Women’s companion). He created some attraction between Men and Women. Due to this attraction, every man always stare at girls and every woman make up herself to look beautiful by wearing ornaments and all. Whatever a man or a woman achieve most of the time they don’t live individually (Exception case are like APJ Kalam, AB Vajpay,Jayalalitha, Cine actor Rekha etc…). Everyone wants their opposite sex as their companion at least at some stage of their life.

Hence, usually all men are attracted to women and women are attracted to men. Men look at women and women look at men this is nature.

God has also taken some special care in creating Human beings. He gave some unique attractions to each individual. Some are attracted with their beauties (or Handsomeness), some are attracted with charm, some are attracted with intelligent, some are attracted with their witty conversations, some are attracted with their naughtiness, some are attracted with their maturity, some are attracted with innocence, some are attracted with their easy way taking life, and some are attracted with their ignorance etc…

So, I’ll get attracted to those girls whose attractions are of my interest and I’ll attract to those girls whose interests are of my attractions.

I got attracted to Illeana, Anushka etc… since their beauty (it’s their attraction) is one of my interests. I got attracted to a girl (whom I still love, but I don’t like to tell her name here) since her innocence and her maturity is of my interests.

I love all of them, but remember the fact that everyone will have their priorities in their own interests.
My priority is given to matured innocence. Hence I strongly love only that girl who has the maturity as well as innocence (May be little difficult to have these two qualities or attractions side by side in one girl). My love won’t be true or strong towards the actress though their beauty is of my interest. (Many people love actress but many don’t like to marry them since they are not only beautiful they are damn hot and their beauty is open to all)
So, though I love 100 girls, I marry or decide to live together with only one girl whose attractions are of my prior interest.
If there are 10 girls with my prior interests it’s not always true that all the 10 girls will find their prior interest in me.


Two souls will fell in love only when their prior interests are of their beloved’s attractions and this love stay strong forever.


Most of men’s first interest is beauty. They’ll look for beauty in every girl then they’ll search for some more attractions.


If you observe almost all the loves starts as one sided and later converts to two side.

Whenever I find a girl with my prior interests I’ll obviously try to impress her with all my possible attractions. If the girl finds any attraction of mine as their prior interest then she’ll start loving you, else she never cares you.


Though I show all my attractions, Illeana won’t love me if her interests are not in my attractions.

Doesn't it make sense to you?

Observe yourself, when you fell in love with a girl, you obviously got impressed or attracted with her quality or asset.

Hence I conclude that Love can be defined and it will take place only when you got impressed with ones quality.


Love is neither blind nor dumb. No one loves blindly, it may look blind to other people, and in fact it’s not.

Therefore, Love is not a sin. Anyone can love anyone, its human right. There is no need to be panic when someone expresses their love on you; it’s your greatness that someone identified you in a group. Also there is no need that you have to love the person who expressed their love. You can tell them that you haven’t found any attraction in them. The one who express their love should also not expect love with their proposal.




PS: I’m not sure how many disagree with my opinion. It’s simply my opinion and my imagination; it may not be true always. Also if someone has any objection with the word “Attraction” you can replace it with “QUALITY”. Last thing, in this blog entry He and She are interchangeable. If you are male reading this post read she as He wherever necessary and if you female then read He as She wherever necessary.

Is 2012- The End of the World (Dooms Day)...???

In recent days, wherever I go…I’m listening up the discussion about the End of The World 2012. When I  know nothing about the factors causing the end of the world, I was little ambiguous. I did some research on Google and YouTube about this and came across many things. One thing I was clear with all those topics and articles  that it’s still a prediction, no one yet officially confirmed or guaranteed that the world will end on December 22^nd2012.

  Well, God knows the truth but many people are making money out of this prediction. I’ve seen couple of websites offering a pack of CD’s  which describes all the blah blah of this non-sense for 50$. Also someone already made movie and also getting good collections it seems.

  Oh Dear..! I’m pretty sure that this is not gonna happen. I’ll celebrate my birthday on 22^ndth December 2012. I cordially invite all you people to come join me on that day…(If I die on this day don't mind...Lets have a party in the hell---I'm sorry hell the is only place I'll go)

     I heard my mom saying a fact about “Skylab Fell On To The Earth”. Everyone thought that they’ll die anytime in that period of 12 days(NASA has lost the control over Skylab and they came to know that it is coming back to the earth in July 1979). Many people sold their properties at that time and most of the people were on leave to die with their loved ones, everyone is enjoyed like anything. July 12^th 1979 people woke up and see they are still alive since Skylab was fell in Hindu or Arabian Ocean (I’m not sure of the Ocean). Everyone was safe. Skylab remained as a comedy to me when I heard about it for the first time and I’m sure this End of the world will also remain as one funnier incidents of life I guess.

  If I dig more into this End of the world 2012, this myth or whatever you call was in the public fuss from the day some guy like me (Who has no real work to do) revealed it by looking at The Mayan Calendar. Mayan’s believe that their Calendar was true all the times. Well, I’m not sure whether there was written something like “on December 22^nd 2012 All the People will die and this world will be end” but I read like there was nothing written after this date. So they believe if there is nothing written in the calendar after 22^nd December, then there is no 23^rd December.

 Few People did mention about Nostradamus theory. Oh Boy…! Stop believing in this Nostradamus. I do remember a word written by Nostradamus which was terrifying in the year 1999. He said that there will be a Third world war in 1999, but I don’t remember any world war in 1999, do you? Some said, everyone will die in 1999 and no one can see millennium. Some says something and some other says some other thing. These guys are all predicting are guessing the future. Nostradamus wrote all his so called facts 500 years ago. God knows how he predicted all those things but to his luck few things had happened according to his prediction. Still I don't believe in his theory, since I can predict so many things about future. Who knows one or two may happen. I guess it is just like throwing a stone in the dark. 

  Even these guys’ predictions are true; my question is why someone doesn’t tell what they written all at a time. Why these guys are publishing or revealing those things installment basis.

  Now Scientists started researching to judge whether these predictions are true or not. I hope they’ll come up with a big NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Some scientists believe that solar storms are entering to the earth on the same so called dooms day. So, they guess this’ll be the disaster. Some other scientists guess that some Volcano eruptions may occur on the same day since the Yellowstone volcano is said to have an erupting pattern for every 650,000 years. The pressure under this volcano is building continuously. Many geologists foresee that this volcano is ready for a massive bang in the 2012 end of the world.  

According to the calculations made by expert scientists, it is anticipated that the Earth will face major destruction in 2012 end of the world. To make the matter even worse, their predictions tells that all human beings will die very shortly with 99% certainty.

An even weirder thing is that in the magnetic field of the Earth have been reported holes similar to ozone holes. It seems that the magnetic poles will soon reverse and this will affect our planet's capacity to defend against heavy objects that will attack us in the future. The planetary alignment could lead to a huge solar storm.

Also scientists think that the solar system has just entered in an interstellar node with a very powerful energy and electromagnetic activity. The entire solar system is reacting, trying to adapt to the new situation.

They also say that the climax will be in 2012 end of the world!

Different people are predicting in different ways. Some say that Instead of natural disaster there might be some human made disaster which will cause the world to be end in 2012.

Well…I don’t think this world will end 2012. Even some disaster comes, definitely some people will alive on this earth. (I wish I’m not the one who stays on this earth)

I strongly believe disaster won’t let you know before it is hitting you.

Even If we were hit by some disaster, what would be the best other than dying all together?

I pray to God, take me out of this world as early as possible before I can commit some more sins.

Keep these things aside, are you really scared of Dooms day? Are you scared of dying?  I’m not and I’m very eager.

PS: This post may leave a wrong impression that I’m very excited to die. Someone may ask me if I’m that interested to die why don’t I die right away by jumping into some empty well. Well, for those who got this impression let me clear you that I don’t wanna commit suicide. I’m talking about death, as I fed up with all problems around. Don’t ask me what are they since mine are not new.

  See Ya later Amigos.

Till Then, Adios.

  

I wish I'm 19 Again 'n' Stay there 4 Ever..!

Every day I definitely feel one thing, I wish I'm 19 again.

Not just because I've enjoyed too much at that time,

Not because I've no responsibilities,

Not because I was in love,

Not because I was in School,


Only because I was exposed to this world and started Exploring the things. I've seen many new things which my dad didn't see in his childhood, I did the things which my mom didn't even imagine she could do in her whole life.

I remember few words of my childhood...!

They were the ending days of Year 1999 and ending days of 20th Century. My Friends and few other people were feeling themselves as lucky to see both the centuries in their lives.

I feel sorry for people who born before inventing a TV that they couldn't see the wonder which they never ever thought of.

When I came to know about the CD (Compact Disc), DVD's were in market. When I started using DVD's Flash Drives (Thumb Drive) are so popular. When I had full of Pen Drives in my pocket, Passports (Portable Hard Drives) are handy.

We never know something else will come and knock these Passports off.

Things are changing very rapidly, we need to get update to them every time else we will stay back in race of this life.

Let me give you an example which make more sense....!

I worked with some guys who were much much older to me. They started working in IT (Information Technology) when I don't even know about IT.

In their times, there wasn't the most popular ORKUT. It's been 6 to 7 years that Google launched ORKUT but they didn't have an account yet.

When I told them about this they told that they haven't heard about it. When I shown them that Damn thing, they were surprised as well as confused in its usage.

(** I don't mean having an ORKUT Id is a great thing I'm just showing an example**)

Let me tell you one more thing about them,

( ** I don't want to list their names here**)

Generally we all people watch all kinds of movies on Internet, but these guys still don't know that there are some websites which will offer us to watch movies freely. They buy the DVD's or they wait till that movie releases in nearby theater.

I've seen couple of people who still use some cards which will cost too much to call India.

I am not making them fools here, but I am Scared of few things.

Lets say in 10 years of coming future, there may be things which will be better than this time. Who knows whether I'll be updated to them or not? Some junior or my children or youngsters may laugh by saying " What..! You didn't even know about this..?"

Yes, I may need to pass through this kind of situation.

Well, I'm not scared of that humiliation rather I'm worried about myself how would I be?

My Dad can't operate a MP3 Player, He can't access Internet, He can't open a game from computer and play by himself.
He likes all these things, he is trying very hard to learn them however he is still not up to the mark.

Well, there may be something new which I don't know how to use it in future.

I've started looking at this world and its technology, its people from 19. I explored many things between 19 and 24.

Now suddenly I became so stubborn in life. Things got changed. I am loosing contact with my friends, everyone are busy in their lives. There are no one who can share things with me.

I'm just implementing the things what I learned in between 19 and 24. I know only those things which were happened in between that age.

I'm not learning any new things now...!

Now I'm updating only software updates that too SQL Server updates.

I know very few things , if I need to watch telugu or Hindi Movie I'll go to Videomasti, If I need English Movie I'll go to OVGuide or FreeSports4u. For Cricket free live streaming I'll google for sometime If I don't find any thing I'll buy. I'll go to Cricinfo for a while and read some articles there I'll play fantasy cricket for a while and I'll play StickCricket

All these things I came to know while I was in my Masters. After masters I never had a chance to explore something interesting. When I get bored with Stick Cricket, I don't know what to do.

I used to be updated with all the new technologies in the market while I was in Masters.

Now, I know only them....


That is the reason I wish I'm 19 again and stay there for ever to get updated with this world, and never feel myself that I'm too late.

Yeah, I know many of you say we still can update with the world...


I don't think this is possible without friends, and becoz of these busy jobs and busy life there is no free time to spend with friends. Only way is to call them and have some chit chat.


Many of you may oppose me, but I love to be a 19 Yr guy...!

When will I stop dreaming...??

It’s been 8993 days I am here on this earth (till August 03, 2009 CST). I was a typical middle class man in all these days. I was always hiding my desires inside my heart. I had a dream from my childhood when I can’t ask my dad to buy me an Ice-cream more than once in a month, “I’ll study well, I’ll get a good job and I’ll earn lot of money when I grew older and then I’ll buy everything I need and I desire”. I am about to be 25 yrs old in a couple of months, and this world already started calling me as a big man who grew older, but I am still dreaming the same which I dreamed at the age of 10. I studied OK, got a job still I am in the same place where I thought I left it. If average life span of a human being is 60 years, then I’ll live for 21915 days, among them almost half of them spent already by dreaming the future.

When will I live without dreaming? Or when will I stop dreaming and accomplish my dreams?
well, I have no answer to this question.
May be I need to Dream again to answer this question…!!
Working on Monthly salary is not looking as the feasible way to pass through my dreams, but what can I do other than this? If I knew the solution I would not have wrote this.
From the last week of the month, my eyes will start staring at the calendar for the 1st of next month, becoz the weight of my wallet gets credited by then. When I realize the 1st week of the month, I don’t even feel happy since all the credit card bills, mortgages, loans, phone bills, room rents, grocery bills will come in front of me and remind me about my credit history if I fail to pay them. When I start calculating all of them, I notice “I am out of money”. I’ll keep about 200 to 300$ aside, since there is still many days left in that month.
What in this world a man can do with 200 bucks?
I can’t go to lunch with my colleagues, since I know I need to pay for my lunch which costs an amount which looks very huge since I have only 200 bucks left in wallet. Luckily I don’t have a car; otherwise it would have been difficult for me to pay the EMI of the car, and Insurance of the car. All these 200 remaining bucks would have been spent on Gas. However am I really a lucky man without a car? I don’t think so..!
This remains a dream to me. I don’t know how long I need to wait to have one.

I’m paying the credit cards from almost about 2 years, but to my surprise the credit remains same. I’m paying my student loan from almost about a year; it still looks like a big mountain. God damn, when can I pay all of them?
May be I need to dream for a year or two to get out of these credits.

Sometimes may be once or twice in a year, I’ll save about 1000$...When I feel, I am saving money I’ll be out of the project for couple of months and I’ll use all of those savings and I’ll be out of the money again. I am 25 (24.85 exactly) but till now didn’t really saved 25 bucks.

What time I’ll come out of this waiting for 1st of the Month?
Umm.., I think I’ll never get out of these problems if I work as a software contractor. In fact people in here will assume that Contractors are one among the rich people and they’ll earn lots of lots of money. They don’t know what we get. We get nothing…literally we get shit. The Middle men (brokers to be exact) will be rich than the actual. Well, I can’t really blame these brokers since we don’t get the shit I was talking about without them.

Man what kind of life is this..???
Sometimes I want to be a “GHAJINI” who forgets everything and remembers only 1st of the month.
I’ve seen my dad thinking like me. He has seen his dad thinking like him. May my son will see me thinking like him. When will we get rich…??
You see, I am dreaming again…!!
I know there are millions of people who live their lives in dreaming. There are so many others in this world who don’t even dare to dream.
I heard so many people saying, it is easy to live as poor and easy to live as rich but always difficult to be a middle class man. When comes to work, my client may or may not be happy, middle man is always happy and I will never be happy. Why this thing is happening when comes to work.
I work hard, both client and middle man are rich and I’ll be in middleclass.
So, if you can invest some money, you may be rich…!
When can we Invest money…??
Only Investors family becoming investors and workers who work for them are always becoming workers.
I think this world may have been created as 2 types of people, one who invests, second who work.
I don’t know whether I am lucky or not to born as Worker.
I heard some of my friends saying that we are really lucky to be born as middle class men, since rich people can’t really live peacefully. Well, I never been rich so I don’t know what mental tensions they have but I’ve been in middle class I know the peacefulness of this. I never seen a poor man’s feelings but I can understand them and I feel little lucky to be as middleclass.

My question always be same,
When can one become rich? Particularly when will this middleclass life ends?
May be never…, since we never realize that we become rich when we buy a car, we never realize when we own a duplex. I believe God forgot to add some compromise and some satisfaction to the Human beings while he is manufacturing.

Wait a second..!!
Did anyone understand what I am trying to tell…? Oops, I don’t know what I am talking about (Ha ha ) , I’ll continue this once I figure out what exactly I am trying to tell.