When someone fell in LOVE? and What is Love?

("Many of us say, “no one can define what love is”. I think we can define what love is and what one will do when they are in love but we don’t know how and when it starts in one person. Well, I guess I know when it starts or how it starts.That is the Intention of this post.")


I’ll stay at signal light when it is Red by believing that it will turn green soon. It’s every ones belief that Red light will turn green after sometime.
While going to bed, I believe that I’ll wake up on next day.
Everyone has some believes, some superstitions, and some disbelieves.

I heard some people saying Love is also a belief! I always wonder how love can be a belief.

If Love is a belief, then what type of belief and what should we believe?

How “belief” makes someone love you?

Let’s say a boy loves a girl, and how "belief" made the boy to love that girl?

After looking at the girl for the first time,

Did he believe that that girl will stay with him all the time and she won’t go away with anyone else?
  Or
Did he believe that that girl will stay as beautiful as she is at the time he is loving?
 Or
Did he believe that that girl will help him out all the time throughout his life?

I don't think a boy will think of all these things when he see's a girl for the first time.

For an instance, let’s say a girl loves a boy then How belief led to her love?

When she saw a boy for the first time,

Does she need to believe that the boy will take care of her or not? Or that boy will earn money or not?

If she believes in all these things then that will be called as Security not Love.

If Love starts with belief then I have to say that belief starts only when you feel secure. If this is true, then Love starts only when a girl or boy feels secure of each other.


What do you think!! Does love starts with security?

If it is true, I love Illeana. Can anyone tell what type of security or belief making me to love Illeana? I know nothing about her, I never felt secure about her still I love her. Not only me but many people of Andhra Pradesh love Ileana.

What making them love Ileana?

Certainly, it’s not belief or Security.

Then what is Love?

I've seen Karenna Kapoor Saying Love is Respect.

I ain’t understood how Love is respect? If it is respect, then how it starts in between men and women?
What type of Respect makes love between two souls?

I respect all women, but I don’t love all the women right? I respect Kalpana Chawla’s courage, her dedications but I don’t love her. I respect Mother Terissa’s views but I don’t love her either.

I respect all the guests come to our home, I’ll be with them to help every their need during their stay, still there is no guarantee that I love them.

I don’t agree with the statement “Love is Respect”.

Then, Love is not secure feeling, Love is not Respect, Love is not belief then what love is?

I've seen many telugu movies stating that Love is sacrifice.

If Love is sacrifice, then only sacrifices should create love in human beings but its not true, since I love my friends though they don’t sacrifice anything for me.

Gandhi and many national leaders sacrificed their lives for Indian Independence. We all respect them, but I guess none of us want to marry them.

I conclude by saying that love is not a belief, not a respect, not a secure feeling, not a sacrifice. All these are qualities of Love.

When you love someone you’ll respect their ideas, you’ll respect their views, and you’ll respect their beliefs.

When you love someone you’ll believe in them. You believe that they’ll stay with you in your good, bad, happy, sorrows. You believe that they share everything. You believe that they make you happy.
When you love someone you’ll sacrifice your desires for your beloved.

All these are qualities of love but these won’t let your love started. In other words I say these are the responsibilities when you love someone.

We can see all these qualities in our parents.

In this world I guess the only love which is not polluted is parent’s love. They love us whatever we are. They’ll sacrifice many of their desires to make us happy. They’ll respect your views and they always believe in you though you fail every time.

So, we can say love is combination of respecting each other qualities though they are good or bad, believing in each other though they fail every their step, sacrificing their desires and activities to keep their beloved happy and making their beloved feel secure in their company.

Many of us say, “no one can define what love is”. I think we can explain what love is and what one will do when they are in love but we don’t know how and when it starts in one person. Well, I guess I know when it starts or how it starts.

Before explaining my view, may I ask you a question?

Why do you love your parents?
Simple answer is, they gave us birth. They shown us this world, they gave us this life.

Why our parents love us?
Straight forward answer is, we are the icons of their love. We are someone came through them.

Why do you love your siblings?
Since they share the same blood of our parents and they live with us together.

Do you love your relatives?
I don’t think someone will love their relatives until and unless they are very good in nature and helped them getting through some issues. Still I don’t think there will be some true love exists with relatives. However, we respect our relatives since they are related to us.

I love my Grand Father (Mom’s dad), since he used tell me many stories in my child hood and he used to take me to his village in holidays, he used to give me some pocket money.
Whereas I don’t really love my Dad’s dad since he was never really cared me as my other grand Father.
So, I guess there should be some kind of reason to love other than our family members (what I mean by my family is my parents and my siblings).

Then how and why one will love a girl or boy who is not related to them by any means?

What I mean by this question is why a girl loves a boy or a boy loves a girl without any relation?
(This is my main concern of this blog entry)


I loved many girls in my life. I loved Illeana (Telugu Actress); I loved Anushka (Telugu Actress); I loved my school mate. I loved my college mate etc…
I loved all these girls with all different reasons.
Before telling them let me add some philosophy in this blog entry.
God created two types of People. One is Men and the other is Women. He created women as men’s companion (Or Men as Women’s companion). He created some attraction between Men and Women. Due to this attraction, every man always stare at girls and every woman make up herself to look beautiful by wearing ornaments and all. Whatever a man or a woman achieve most of the time they don’t live individually (Exception case are like APJ Kalam, AB Vajpay,Jayalalitha, Cine actor Rekha etc…). Everyone wants their opposite sex as their companion at least at some stage of their life.

Hence, usually all men are attracted to women and women are attracted to men. Men look at women and women look at men this is nature.

God has also taken some special care in creating Human beings. He gave some unique attractions to each individual. Some are attracted with their beauties (or Handsomeness), some are attracted with charm, some are attracted with intelligent, some are attracted with their witty conversations, some are attracted with their naughtiness, some are attracted with their maturity, some are attracted with innocence, some are attracted with their easy way taking life, and some are attracted with their ignorance etc…

So, I’ll get attracted to those girls whose attractions are of my interest and I’ll attract to those girls whose interests are of my attractions.

I got attracted to Illeana, Anushka etc… since their beauty (it’s their attraction) is one of my interests. I got attracted to a girl (whom I still love, but I don’t like to tell her name here) since her innocence and her maturity is of my interests.

I love all of them, but remember the fact that everyone will have their priorities in their own interests.
My priority is given to matured innocence. Hence I strongly love only that girl who has the maturity as well as innocence (May be little difficult to have these two qualities or attractions side by side in one girl). My love won’t be true or strong towards the actress though their beauty is of my interest. (Many people love actress but many don’t like to marry them since they are not only beautiful they are damn hot and their beauty is open to all)
So, though I love 100 girls, I marry or decide to live together with only one girl whose attractions are of my prior interest.
If there are 10 girls with my prior interests it’s not always true that all the 10 girls will find their prior interest in me.


Two souls will fell in love only when their prior interests are of their beloved’s attractions and this love stay strong forever.


Most of men’s first interest is beauty. They’ll look for beauty in every girl then they’ll search for some more attractions.


If you observe almost all the loves starts as one sided and later converts to two side.

Whenever I find a girl with my prior interests I’ll obviously try to impress her with all my possible attractions. If the girl finds any attraction of mine as their prior interest then she’ll start loving you, else she never cares you.


Though I show all my attractions, Illeana won’t love me if her interests are not in my attractions.

Doesn't it make sense to you?

Observe yourself, when you fell in love with a girl, you obviously got impressed or attracted with her quality or asset.

Hence I conclude that Love can be defined and it will take place only when you got impressed with ones quality.


Love is neither blind nor dumb. No one loves blindly, it may look blind to other people, and in fact it’s not.

Therefore, Love is not a sin. Anyone can love anyone, its human right. There is no need to be panic when someone expresses their love on you; it’s your greatness that someone identified you in a group. Also there is no need that you have to love the person who expressed their love. You can tell them that you haven’t found any attraction in them. The one who express their love should also not expect love with their proposal.




PS: I’m not sure how many disagree with my opinion. It’s simply my opinion and my imagination; it may not be true always. Also if someone has any objection with the word “Attraction” you can replace it with “QUALITY”. Last thing, in this blog entry He and She are interchangeable. If you are male reading this post read she as He wherever necessary and if you female then read He as She wherever necessary.

Is 2012- The End of the World (Dooms Day)...???

In recent days, wherever I go…I’m listening up the discussion about the End of The World 2012. When I  know nothing about the factors causing the end of the world, I was little ambiguous. I did some research on Google and YouTube about this and came across many things. One thing I was clear with all those topics and articles  that it’s still a prediction, no one yet officially confirmed or guaranteed that the world will end on December 22^nd2012.

  Well, God knows the truth but many people are making money out of this prediction. I’ve seen couple of websites offering a pack of CD’s  which describes all the blah blah of this non-sense for 50$. Also someone already made movie and also getting good collections it seems.

  Oh Dear..! I’m pretty sure that this is not gonna happen. I’ll celebrate my birthday on 22^ndth December 2012. I cordially invite all you people to come join me on that day…(If I die on this day don't mind...Lets have a party in the hell---I'm sorry hell the is only place I'll go)

     I heard my mom saying a fact about “Skylab Fell On To The Earth”. Everyone thought that they’ll die anytime in that period of 12 days(NASA has lost the control over Skylab and they came to know that it is coming back to the earth in July 1979). Many people sold their properties at that time and most of the people were on leave to die with their loved ones, everyone is enjoyed like anything. July 12^th 1979 people woke up and see they are still alive since Skylab was fell in Hindu or Arabian Ocean (I’m not sure of the Ocean). Everyone was safe. Skylab remained as a comedy to me when I heard about it for the first time and I’m sure this End of the world will also remain as one funnier incidents of life I guess.

  If I dig more into this End of the world 2012, this myth or whatever you call was in the public fuss from the day some guy like me (Who has no real work to do) revealed it by looking at The Mayan Calendar. Mayan’s believe that their Calendar was true all the times. Well, I’m not sure whether there was written something like “on December 22^nd 2012 All the People will die and this world will be end” but I read like there was nothing written after this date. So they believe if there is nothing written in the calendar after 22^nd December, then there is no 23^rd December.

 Few People did mention about Nostradamus theory. Oh Boy…! Stop believing in this Nostradamus. I do remember a word written by Nostradamus which was terrifying in the year 1999. He said that there will be a Third world war in 1999, but I don’t remember any world war in 1999, do you? Some said, everyone will die in 1999 and no one can see millennium. Some says something and some other says some other thing. These guys are all predicting are guessing the future. Nostradamus wrote all his so called facts 500 years ago. God knows how he predicted all those things but to his luck few things had happened according to his prediction. Still I don't believe in his theory, since I can predict so many things about future. Who knows one or two may happen. I guess it is just like throwing a stone in the dark. 

  Even these guys’ predictions are true; my question is why someone doesn’t tell what they written all at a time. Why these guys are publishing or revealing those things installment basis.

  Now Scientists started researching to judge whether these predictions are true or not. I hope they’ll come up with a big NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Some scientists believe that solar storms are entering to the earth on the same so called dooms day. So, they guess this’ll be the disaster. Some other scientists guess that some Volcano eruptions may occur on the same day since the Yellowstone volcano is said to have an erupting pattern for every 650,000 years. The pressure under this volcano is building continuously. Many geologists foresee that this volcano is ready for a massive bang in the 2012 end of the world.  

According to the calculations made by expert scientists, it is anticipated that the Earth will face major destruction in 2012 end of the world. To make the matter even worse, their predictions tells that all human beings will die very shortly with 99% certainty.

An even weirder thing is that in the magnetic field of the Earth have been reported holes similar to ozone holes. It seems that the magnetic poles will soon reverse and this will affect our planet's capacity to defend against heavy objects that will attack us in the future. The planetary alignment could lead to a huge solar storm.

Also scientists think that the solar system has just entered in an interstellar node with a very powerful energy and electromagnetic activity. The entire solar system is reacting, trying to adapt to the new situation.

They also say that the climax will be in 2012 end of the world!

Different people are predicting in different ways. Some say that Instead of natural disaster there might be some human made disaster which will cause the world to be end in 2012.

Well…I don’t think this world will end 2012. Even some disaster comes, definitely some people will alive on this earth. (I wish I’m not the one who stays on this earth)

I strongly believe disaster won’t let you know before it is hitting you.

Even If we were hit by some disaster, what would be the best other than dying all together?

I pray to God, take me out of this world as early as possible before I can commit some more sins.

Keep these things aside, are you really scared of Dooms day? Are you scared of dying?  I’m not and I’m very eager.

PS: This post may leave a wrong impression that I’m very excited to die. Someone may ask me if I’m that interested to die why don’t I die right away by jumping into some empty well. Well, for those who got this impression let me clear you that I don’t wanna commit suicide. I’m talking about death, as I fed up with all problems around. Don’t ask me what are they since mine are not new.

  See Ya later Amigos.

Till Then, Adios.

  

I wish I'm 19 Again 'n' Stay there 4 Ever..!

Every day I definitely feel one thing, I wish I'm 19 again.

Not just because I've enjoyed too much at that time,

Not because I've no responsibilities,

Not because I was in love,

Not because I was in School,


Only because I was exposed to this world and started Exploring the things. I've seen many new things which my dad didn't see in his childhood, I did the things which my mom didn't even imagine she could do in her whole life.

I remember few words of my childhood...!

They were the ending days of Year 1999 and ending days of 20th Century. My Friends and few other people were feeling themselves as lucky to see both the centuries in their lives.

I feel sorry for people who born before inventing a TV that they couldn't see the wonder which they never ever thought of.

When I came to know about the CD (Compact Disc), DVD's were in market. When I started using DVD's Flash Drives (Thumb Drive) are so popular. When I had full of Pen Drives in my pocket, Passports (Portable Hard Drives) are handy.

We never know something else will come and knock these Passports off.

Things are changing very rapidly, we need to get update to them every time else we will stay back in race of this life.

Let me give you an example which make more sense....!

I worked with some guys who were much much older to me. They started working in IT (Information Technology) when I don't even know about IT.

In their times, there wasn't the most popular ORKUT. It's been 6 to 7 years that Google launched ORKUT but they didn't have an account yet.

When I told them about this they told that they haven't heard about it. When I shown them that Damn thing, they were surprised as well as confused in its usage.

(** I don't mean having an ORKUT Id is a great thing I'm just showing an example**)

Let me tell you one more thing about them,

( ** I don't want to list their names here**)

Generally we all people watch all kinds of movies on Internet, but these guys still don't know that there are some websites which will offer us to watch movies freely. They buy the DVD's or they wait till that movie releases in nearby theater.

I've seen couple of people who still use some cards which will cost too much to call India.

I am not making them fools here, but I am Scared of few things.

Lets say in 10 years of coming future, there may be things which will be better than this time. Who knows whether I'll be updated to them or not? Some junior or my children or youngsters may laugh by saying " What..! You didn't even know about this..?"

Yes, I may need to pass through this kind of situation.

Well, I'm not scared of that humiliation rather I'm worried about myself how would I be?

My Dad can't operate a MP3 Player, He can't access Internet, He can't open a game from computer and play by himself.
He likes all these things, he is trying very hard to learn them however he is still not up to the mark.

Well, there may be something new which I don't know how to use it in future.

I've started looking at this world and its technology, its people from 19. I explored many things between 19 and 24.

Now suddenly I became so stubborn in life. Things got changed. I am loosing contact with my friends, everyone are busy in their lives. There are no one who can share things with me.

I'm just implementing the things what I learned in between 19 and 24. I know only those things which were happened in between that age.

I'm not learning any new things now...!

Now I'm updating only software updates that too SQL Server updates.

I know very few things , if I need to watch telugu or Hindi Movie I'll go to Videomasti, If I need English Movie I'll go to OVGuide or FreeSports4u. For Cricket free live streaming I'll google for sometime If I don't find any thing I'll buy. I'll go to Cricinfo for a while and read some articles there I'll play fantasy cricket for a while and I'll play StickCricket

All these things I came to know while I was in my Masters. After masters I never had a chance to explore something interesting. When I get bored with Stick Cricket, I don't know what to do.

I used to be updated with all the new technologies in the market while I was in Masters.

Now, I know only them....


That is the reason I wish I'm 19 again and stay there for ever to get updated with this world, and never feel myself that I'm too late.

Yeah, I know many of you say we still can update with the world...


I don't think this is possible without friends, and becoz of these busy jobs and busy life there is no free time to spend with friends. Only way is to call them and have some chit chat.


Many of you may oppose me, but I love to be a 19 Yr guy...!

When will I stop dreaming...??

It’s been 8993 days I am here on this earth (till August 03, 2009 CST). I was a typical middle class man in all these days. I was always hiding my desires inside my heart. I had a dream from my childhood when I can’t ask my dad to buy me an Ice-cream more than once in a month, “I’ll study well, I’ll get a good job and I’ll earn lot of money when I grew older and then I’ll buy everything I need and I desire”. I am about to be 25 yrs old in a couple of months, and this world already started calling me as a big man who grew older, but I am still dreaming the same which I dreamed at the age of 10. I studied OK, got a job still I am in the same place where I thought I left it. If average life span of a human being is 60 years, then I’ll live for 21915 days, among them almost half of them spent already by dreaming the future.

When will I live without dreaming? Or when will I stop dreaming and accomplish my dreams?
well, I have no answer to this question.
May be I need to Dream again to answer this question…!!
Working on Monthly salary is not looking as the feasible way to pass through my dreams, but what can I do other than this? If I knew the solution I would not have wrote this.
From the last week of the month, my eyes will start staring at the calendar for the 1st of next month, becoz the weight of my wallet gets credited by then. When I realize the 1st week of the month, I don’t even feel happy since all the credit card bills, mortgages, loans, phone bills, room rents, grocery bills will come in front of me and remind me about my credit history if I fail to pay them. When I start calculating all of them, I notice “I am out of money”. I’ll keep about 200 to 300$ aside, since there is still many days left in that month.
What in this world a man can do with 200 bucks?
I can’t go to lunch with my colleagues, since I know I need to pay for my lunch which costs an amount which looks very huge since I have only 200 bucks left in wallet. Luckily I don’t have a car; otherwise it would have been difficult for me to pay the EMI of the car, and Insurance of the car. All these 200 remaining bucks would have been spent on Gas. However am I really a lucky man without a car? I don’t think so..!
This remains a dream to me. I don’t know how long I need to wait to have one.

I’m paying the credit cards from almost about 2 years, but to my surprise the credit remains same. I’m paying my student loan from almost about a year; it still looks like a big mountain. God damn, when can I pay all of them?
May be I need to dream for a year or two to get out of these credits.

Sometimes may be once or twice in a year, I’ll save about 1000$...When I feel, I am saving money I’ll be out of the project for couple of months and I’ll use all of those savings and I’ll be out of the money again. I am 25 (24.85 exactly) but till now didn’t really saved 25 bucks.

What time I’ll come out of this waiting for 1st of the Month?
Umm.., I think I’ll never get out of these problems if I work as a software contractor. In fact people in here will assume that Contractors are one among the rich people and they’ll earn lots of lots of money. They don’t know what we get. We get nothing…literally we get shit. The Middle men (brokers to be exact) will be rich than the actual. Well, I can’t really blame these brokers since we don’t get the shit I was talking about without them.

Man what kind of life is this..???
Sometimes I want to be a “GHAJINI” who forgets everything and remembers only 1st of the month.
I’ve seen my dad thinking like me. He has seen his dad thinking like him. May my son will see me thinking like him. When will we get rich…??
You see, I am dreaming again…!!
I know there are millions of people who live their lives in dreaming. There are so many others in this world who don’t even dare to dream.
I heard so many people saying, it is easy to live as poor and easy to live as rich but always difficult to be a middle class man. When comes to work, my client may or may not be happy, middle man is always happy and I will never be happy. Why this thing is happening when comes to work.
I work hard, both client and middle man are rich and I’ll be in middleclass.
So, if you can invest some money, you may be rich…!
When can we Invest money…??
Only Investors family becoming investors and workers who work for them are always becoming workers.
I think this world may have been created as 2 types of people, one who invests, second who work.
I don’t know whether I am lucky or not to born as Worker.
I heard some of my friends saying that we are really lucky to be born as middle class men, since rich people can’t really live peacefully. Well, I never been rich so I don’t know what mental tensions they have but I’ve been in middle class I know the peacefulness of this. I never seen a poor man’s feelings but I can understand them and I feel little lucky to be as middleclass.

My question always be same,
When can one become rich? Particularly when will this middleclass life ends?
May be never…, since we never realize that we become rich when we buy a car, we never realize when we own a duplex. I believe God forgot to add some compromise and some satisfaction to the Human beings while he is manufacturing.

Wait a second..!!
Did anyone understand what I am trying to tell…? Oops, I don’t know what I am talking about (Ha ha ) , I’ll continue this once I figure out what exactly I am trying to tell.

Our Ambitions...!

It’s been so long that I didn’t write anything in this blog. Well, the reason for that is Laziness. Yes, that is the main reason and apart from that there are some other reasons. One of them is I was thought less for few days. I wanted some break, and see what I am writing in my blog and weather it is good or not. Till now I never find the solution. I am not very clear about what to write in blog. If I write my daily dairy many of my friends said that it is useless. They may be true becoz, there is nothing to do with my blah blah. However, sometimes I feel that whatever I am writing is also useless since everyone knows it..! Does it mean writing something in my mind is either use less or worth less? So, what is the best solution..? Just quit the blog and say nothing…! Or else wait for some good thought and write then. You know, all these thoughts were on top of my head. Any way one thought is spinning my mind from several days, and I wanna share that with you. I am not sure it is interesting and I don’t think it is something new which I discovered.
Before telling my Blah Blah, Let me ask you guys a question..! “May I know Your Ambition or do you know what your aim is? Do we have any idea about our Target? Do we really have any hobby? Did we ever think of how to celebrate the holidays…?” For all of these questions many of us don’t have a proper answer..! Am I right? I always asked these questions to myself, but I never got the answer. I don’t know what my ambition is? I have no proper idea about my aim or Target. I don’t even have a good hobby. If I find some holiday, either I sleep or I watch movies. I don’t do any specific things on weekends. Only thing will be in my mind on a holiday is to wash my clothes and Iron them. Rest of the day watch some movie or do some non-sense. I believe there are so many people like me…! Am I wrong to assume this?
Well, I may not be wrong to assume that fact. If you are like me, ask yourself why we are like this? If you get any answer please let me know. I analyzed these questions. I came up with my idea. I’ll share with you. Correct me if it is a wrong Idea.

If we ask any one (even ask ourselves) “What is your Ambition?” Some people say they want to be a Collector or they want to be an Engineer, or they want to be a doctor, but the truth is, he or She (Ourselves) just wants to earn some money and get some value and some level in the society. We don’t really know our Ambition, even if we know we don’t dare for it sometime. Let me give you some example, “If my ambition is to become a software Engineer, I’ll go and study Computer Science Engineering or Information Technology in our under graduation. However I’ll look at the situation around the globe, hey man Software Industry is very bad. There are so many ups and downs in it. Many IT Professionals are getting fired from their jobs. So, I won’t dare to study CSE in Bachelor’s. I’ll go study something like ECE or EEE. I know it is not my interested field but still I’ll go and study it. “

You know why I am doing this…? Just because of money. We are leaving our Ambition somewhere and trying our luck in some other field for which there is demand and for which we get money. I never had some ambition in my life. I never dreamed about my ambition. I dreamed like I had a big Bungalow, and big Car and some value in the Society. May be this is my ambition. I don’t know. I never really had a meaning for ambition in my dictionary. I don’t know what I want to be.

Without my notice I am here in this position. Still Confused about the future..! I’ve completed my 10th Standard and I don’t know what I really want to study in Intermediate. I know I am an average student and I am scared of Mathematics, I always struggled with Science. I am strong only with Social Studies. History was always interesting to me in Social Studies and also Economics I wanted to know about it. You know what, I didn’t know what MPC (Intermediate Subjects) is. May be I was forced or I didn’t dared to tell my father about my interest. I know if I tell my father about my interest he will never agree, because we don’t know the life of a Historian or an Economist. I know how much I struggled in my initial days of Intermediate studying MPC. Thanks to one of my friends Sravan, who helped me to think like a mathematician…! However, I am still poor in Physics and Chemistry. I got excellent marks in Physics and Chemistry though. Once again at the end of my intermediate, big question mark in my mind. What Next?
After MPC Intermediate 90% of people forward their step to Engineering, without even knowing about it. Till Intermediate I used to think an Engineer is one who builds bridges between the roads. I don’t know that there are so many fields are there in Engineering. Confusion again, what field should I choose? I know nothing about any field. At that period of time, Software Industry was in very bad condition. So, no one was daring to go for CSE or IT. My father was same like all. He preferred EEE. Hence I joined in EEE without knowing what an Electrical Engineer does. As a poor Science guy, I started my under graduation. I struggled a lot in Engineering. Till now I never really understood the concepts of Electricity. However I completed my Engineering with First Class. OK…I completed my UG and what next? Everyone searching for jobs, so did I. Till then, Software Industry was in good condition hence, everyone trying their luck in IT, so did I. Luck was not with me I never got the job in India. I saw some of my friends planning for abroad for their further studies, so did I. Luckily, I got this one and Came to USA for my Masters.
How can a poor Electrical guy can complete his masters in EEE? That’s what happened to me, my grades were very bad in Electrical and they suspended me from Electrical Program. Just to maintain status in USA, I took another worse step to transfer to some other university in completely new field, Software Engineering. Ahh..! Come on stop it, how can a non-computer science guy survive in Software Engineering field? You know what, I did it. Thanks to the university (I don’t wanna mention that University Name Here) gave me good grades and handled a degree in Software Engineering. Confusion started again. Any way completed my 18 years of education, and what next? I am neither interested in continuing the studies nor forced to continue the studies further. So, what should I do now…?
Everyone who completed their masters is trying their luck in Software Industry irrespective of their specialization. You know once again, I followed the same thing. I tried as software professional. Yes, I am software professional now, without knowing a SDLC. I am working as Software Analyst without knowing anything. I am just checking my luck in every project.
If I go back and see, where I started and where I am now. Is this the field I am going to continue or will I switch to something else? I don’t know. I am with the same Confusion which I had it 10 years back and I am sure I am always confused till next 10 years. You know what happens next, I will get used to it. Very funny right..!
I know this is what happening with many of us. Does it have any solution? Can we ever live for ourselves? I am of 24 yrs kid; answer “I don’t know” for the question “What your ambition is?” This is what I am doing from last 10 years. Funniest thing is, people used to laugh if I say I don’t know as if they know their ambition. If someone ask me What is my ambition as of now, I’ll say I got to pay my Bank loan. That is the only ambition I have. Pay the Bank loan and Clear the Credit Card debts by any means.

What do I do on a weekend or on free time? Nothing..! I am sure there are so many people like me. We always say “Ahh…it’s boring”. If we have some hobby we never feel boring.
Let me tell you one more story…!

My Team lead is of 50 years age. He has grandsons too. You know what he does in free time? He’ll do Carpentry…! Ya…you read it right. He does. He makes his own bed. He makes cradle to his grandson. He’ll make some interesting gifts for his wife and his sons on their birthdays with carpentry. Why he is taking that much risk in his 50 yrs age. That is his hobby. Some of our team members do Gardening in their free time. They never said that they were bored. I said 10 times every day “it’s boring”.

You know why many of our friends struggle in their education, because they don’t like it. That is the reason many of us get failed in many subjects. Our interest is something, but we deviate to some other direction and forced to adopt the new conditions which we never like.
I saw some of my friends who know their ambition unlike me, but their situation doesn’t support them to be what they wanted. I saw some of my friends want to be a singer, some wanted to be a photographer, and some wants to be a director, some wants to be a politician, some wants to be a movie actor. However, our parents or the society or their mind or some other problem may be stopping them. Encourage those kinds of people…, don’t discourage them.
Anyway, people like me will never change. At least let us encourage some of the people unlike us and try our children will not become like us.
What do you say…!!

When will be India a devoloped Nation?

From my child hood knowledge, I believe that Indus Valley Civilization and Harappa Mohenjo-Daro civilizations are one of the oldest civilizations on this earth. It means we Indians know a culture nothing but Civilization long back. (I hope I don’t need to remind you people that Indus Valley Civilizations was some time around 3500 BC). Before Vasco De Gama Discovered India some time in 1490 AD, so many Europeans as well as so many others like Aryas, Dravidas Discovered India. We all know Alexander the Great Invaded of course lost in India in some time around 330 BC. So we Indians were well civilized people just like so many countries long back.

Every one knows that we Indians are much talented than all other people across the world. Most of the people believe that Arya bhatta from India discovered (may be invented) Zero some where between 475 AD and 550AD, without witch we can’t even imagine this world.
(Though there are so many controversies about zero Invention (may be discover), we Indians believe that Arya Bhatta is the first one to Invent or discover the Zero. Some People believe that Babylonian is the first one to use the zero before Arya Bhatta. But Babylonian just used the Zero Concept, he don’t know How exactly a zero looks like. Arya Bhatta is the first one to use zero =0 in his calculations.)
Historians Believe that value of g=9.8 (forgive me if it is wrong) was invented by Indians before Sir Newton. We don’t know who exactly invented all these things, but we can conclude that Indians has the major role in this worlds Existence.

We have many more talented people from long back and it continues till now.

My question is why we Indians are still backward, still undeveloped, still developing country while we have pretty much talent with us?

We know civilization long back, we know mathematics from centuries, we know Politics years ago (We say “Chanakya Neethi”) still we are not in a position to compete with many of developed nations.

Where we are lagging behind, what is going wrong, what went wrong…?

From many years this question was keep running in my mind just like every Indian. Why we Indians are not in Commanding Position? Why our people are still hunting in different countries for Job? Why our software professionals are job less if recession is in America? Why our Indian Currency goes down if American Market is good? Why Brittan Pound has that value in India? Why we people took 200 years to get rid of bloody English men? Why we are not developed even after 60+ years after Independence? Why Japan is that dominant, and courageous to attack Pearl Harbor though it is 10% of India? Why we still follow someone’s rulez?

I remember a word from my child hood “Industrial Revolution”. I didn’t understand what that was in my child hood, but soon after I grew older I came to know what that was. This was the revolution took long time to come India, and I believe is the backwardness of India. If we invented something like Telephone, Telegraph, or Air Plane India would have been the developed nation.
We know Agriculture, but don’t know modern techniques. We people still won’t follow modern techniques to improve the result of Agriculture. We know all the things, but we know all in Conventional ways. We never got updated with technology; we never tried to change the things. This is the main point we are lagging behind many of developed nations.

We people don’t like to experiment the new things rather we would like to follow the old conventional way. We don’t like to take risks, we are afraid of taking them. We are afraid of the result, hence the result is. So, I blame our Indian brains which stick to conventional ways. Though we have few people to take risks, many hands are there to stop them. Our mentality is, we don’t do some thing and we never allow some one to do that. If this is the case continues, India will always be a developing Nation.

One more thing I believe for delayed Industrial Revolution in India is because of the British Rule and Because of KING Ruling. Before British coming to India, we used to have so many Kings within India, and every King calls his particular reign as a nation. Every King has his own rules, and our Kings were never united. At the same time they were not aware of this technology, hence the people of those reigns are not aware of any of these things. When we don’t know about the bicycles, British came to India with Cars. See the difference, if our Kings were united, and if they don’t have any quarrels between them they would have been thought of this technology, but they were always interested in occupying other Kingdom, ruling whole India. Thanks to British, though they looted every thing from us, they showed us Transportation system, Communication System, Modern Technology etc... Only bad with them was they got every thing from India, left us without any thing. If we don’t have British come to India, imagine still we were ruled by some King XYZ 12…I think every one aware of the fact that Nizam was ruled Hyderabad even in 1940.

Therefore I believe major two things for making India undeveloped is our coward mentality, and our Use less kings. Third one is our innocence for feeding British for 200 years and our laziness we never really tried hard to get developed. America was also a ruled by Europeans, but they got independence very quickly and developed as if there was nothing happened.

After we got Independence in 1947, we had the opportunity to grow up, but once again our dirty minds stopping to rise high. I think we didn’t even extended the Rail ways left by British, we are still stick with those lines (may be we added very few new lines). It has been 60+ years we got Independence still many of our villages don’t have proper road ways and don’t have proper way of transportation. It has been 60+ years British left us, still we use the old conventional way of Agriculture; we use bullock carts and plough for Agriculture. We don’t even try to use new thing in our land, if my neighbor got profit with Cotton every one of my village goes for cotton. If some XYZ got good profit with Rice every one follows him. We guys never use our brain. Our Education system, it is still teaching 1991 Population Count. Our mentality in education is also not changes, if software gets down no one dare to take CSE in B.Tech. If it is going good out there, we don’t hesitate to buy a seat for 1 lakh. If my relative or my friend or my neighbor goes to America, Every one goes to America. British taught us Telegraph, and Land line phone system we stick to those things till 1990s. At this time Internet was very much used by other countries. Fax came into picture in some time 1990s. I believe still many of our people don’t know what an Internet is?

We never dare to do new things; same thing applies in every field of our India. Even in our Indian movies one movie with some triangular love story hits, min 10 of those kind come back to back. If we take sports, Cricket is the only game we people are playing in these days; no one tries to play Hockey, Tennis etc...That is the reason we will get 1 or none Medal in Olympics. Many of us in future forget that Hockey is our National Game and Kabaddi is AP’s State Game.

I know from my social teacher Nagaraju (Thanks to the great man, who taught me all this) that once India got freedom, there was no one dared to invest in Market. The first one to come was Tata and Birla. They dared to invest and we know how big they are now. If they took their leg back in those days, we can’t see this much progress even. We never dare to invest in some thing new as we follow the old conventional ways. I remember a small quote in Telugu “PATA CHINTAKAYA PACCHADI RUCHI” (Old Tamarind pickle is tasty), we follow this line in our lives. This is not true, we should come out of it as early as possible else our grand children will study in their books “India is a developing Country”.

One bigger draw back is we are selfishness. We say in words that we love India so much, but we never show this in our actions, rather we show we love our selves than India. This selfishness making our politicians corrupt. This selfishness making us to stay backwards.
Government of India issues funds for transportation system of public, but the concerned politician, Contractors will fill their pockets with that money as they are selfish, not worried about Indian progress, but worried about their family, his status etc… A police officer never takes action unless offered some bribe, because he don’t mind crime in India, he is just worried about his pocket. Our Traffic Police never worries about Traffic but worries about money. Our Government Officials worries about their families and some unnecessary activities like girls etc... Results comes to office at 11.00 AM and leaves the office 3.00PM including a 1 hour lunch break and 3 tea breaks. We always worry about our near and dears get the jobs even if they are not eligible for that. If some eligible candidate gets placed instead of not qualified our relative it will be much helpful to the company production, which results Country growth, but we don’t mind it since we are selfish. We have plenty of Software Engineers across the world working for different clients. Assume if India has good investors we don’t need to go to USA for a software job and sit on the bench till our bank balance goes to zero and our default APR for credit cards go to 29.99%. In America every single non-sense there is some web site, but in India we couldn’t even have web site for some important thing. We don’t need a database back up because we will never refund some thing and we will never re check any bill. Our banks don’t have a website (These days they are developing). If we don’t have a banks like ICICI, HDFC,and HSBC I don’t know when we would have been know about online banking system. Our Banks are scared to give Credit Cards and afraid to sanction loans.

We never research some new thing, though we have project works in our curriculum, we never did project on some thing new. We always copy some thing. Scientists are like fools in some body’s point of view. Our Government doesn’t encourage us even if we have some real desire inside. With all these conditions it is day dreaming to think we will reach America.

If we leave selfishness, and if we dare to Invest and if we dare to do new things for sure, we are Leaders. At that point of time we don’t need to learn English, many English speaking nations will learn Hindi, Indians don’t get humiliated in USA or UK, Lot of immigrants come to India and our dolor rate will become 44 times to American dolor value.


Though India is developing a little bit in these days, there is lot more we got to develop. The rate we are developing is not in compatible with the rate other nations are developing and the development is only limited to few cities. Lot more work we got to do. May be this youth power of India make some difference.

Wake Up my dear Bros and Sis….Leave the conventional ways, leave your laziness, leave your selfishness make India a developed nation.


I woke up, how many or with me….?

Bitter Experience with American Transportation System.

Imagine, we are moving to new state in India for a job and let’s say Our work place is about 30 miles away from our hotel or room etc… also assume we don’t have our own bike or car etc… How we go to office daily in India?
Yes, Absolutely…! We may take Bus, Train or Auto (Taxi)…!
How long it will take us to travel for 30 miles in a Bus, Train or Auto?
May be 30Min Minimum…! And Hardly in Bad Traffic scenario, will it take 1 Hour Max, Right…? In certain locations like Hyderabad, Mumbai…it may take much more time (may be 90 Min). On a given day if there is no Traffic Jams, we can go to office in 30 min whatever the means of transportation is…!

Now, Let me tell you How ‘Great American’ Transportation Killed me.
I had to leave to Pittsburgh, PA (USA), two days back on a project. I got to stay there for 1 month minimum. Hence I was searching for a room near to the client location, but my search never found me a location near to client Place. I hardly found few apartments about 35 miles away from client location. I was happy that it was OK distance to travel daily. As I don’t have a car, I was in looking for some public transportation. Though, Pittsburgh is one of the good places in USA there are no trains available. Thank God, they had Local Buses available.
You may ask me at this point of time…, “Come on Dude, what is the reason you are blaming America…”
Well, the real story begins here…
They have buses available, but it takes TWO AND HALF HOURS (2 ½) to reach client location from the apartment where I planned to stay for a month.
For me, There are no issues to travel for 2 ½ hours UP and 2 ½ hours Down (Totally 5 hours Daily (to and fro)), If I don’t need to walk for 1 hour and no need to transfer the bus 3 times.
Yeah…That’s true…!
I need to change 3 Buses to travel 30 Miles, and walk for 1 hour to reach destination. If I miss any bus in this pipeline by any means, let me tell you I have no Alternative other than waiting for 1 more Hour, which causes Minimum of one Hour delay to Office. I cannot take a taxi, since they are much expensive. Meter of Taxis in certain locations runs on Time (Indian Autos and Few American Taxis Runs on Distance Meter). If we struck up in some traffic or if we have all red lights in our journey, Meter will keep ticks.

How Dangerous situation it is….? If we don’t have a Car in America, it is like Cutting your legs and asking you to walk without any kind of support.
I know what you thinking about…
The location which I told may be some weird location or the location where I am staying is weird.
Umm…My Answer is NO.
This Problem Arises almost all across America.
I was in Mobile, AL for about 1 Year; I never found a train or bus. I can see the rail tracks, but I never saw a train in those trails. I found one local bus service, but that bus runs for every one hour and also only in certain locations.
If I want to go to a different city, which is about 10 miles away from Mobile I should definitely own a car or someone should drop me in their Car. Let’s say if I want to go to some other state from Alabama Only one option left, take a Flight. I don’t need to tell you how much a round trip costs. There is Grey Hound Bus service available for us, but before taking those buses forget about your destination. I don’t mean they are dangerous but I mean they are tortoise.
Let me tell you guys one more case….!
It is of my friends’ experience. He went to some small village nearer to Minneapolis I guess, but it is in Minnesota State.
He is staying there from last 2 months, till now he couldn’t find single taxi. Besides that he not even found an apartment to share with someone. If he wants to get some Grocery (Indian), he is hiring a car and traveling for almost 170 miles (One way). See how useless location is that.
This is the same story repeats in all over across America other than few locations like, New York, New Jersey, Boston, Washington DC (East Coast of America).
Now I know what you are thinking…!!
Why the hell America has that bad transportation?
Well, best answer is “I don’t know”, but I heard a story from few of my friends. It may be a rumor, it may be true. Let me tell you the story…,
“About 100 years back or some, there was some trading between American Government and American Automobile Association. American Automobile Association Offered, billions of money to American Government for not arranging proper transportation system. Since, that is the only way people will definitely buy Cars for their transportation.”
Sometimes it seems true…!
This is not fair for a common man like me, but I am no one to fight for it, also I guess I don’t have that right. This is the first worst thing I found in America from first day of my stay here. I am not able to understand how Americans are passing their life with this kind of transportation system?

Seriously, I suggest America to think on it and plan something good. It is not at all fair for a leading and highly developed nation.
I don’t know about other countries but as far as India is concerned, we people have much better transportation system. Though our road ways are not good enough, our domestic flights are not up to standard, though our rail tracks are not strong enough, and though there are so many incidents with Auto (Taxi), we Are Leaders.
Heard that UK also have some good means of transportation system just as India, but I guess the standards may be well enough in UK.
I know all Indians living in America may have been faced the same problem I had. Don’t you…?
Share your experiences with me here….!
I imagine, Indians in India may not face the problems like this. Am I correct or wrong with this statement...?
Share your bad experiences in India here…!

The Legend- King of the Kings Asoka

Yesterday my roomie, Kishore played a bollywood movie Asoka. Though I like King Asoka, I never showed some interest in watching this movie before. Yesterday for the first time I watch the movie and really thought that I was fool for not watching this movie long back. After the end of the movie many questions were going in my mind. Is it 100% true? If so, why some of our Indians are against to this movie? I thought there might be some creativity of our movie script writer. I googled about King Asoka. To my surprise I found lot of interesting things about him which I never know.

When I was in school, I learn something about King Asoka. I just remember 2 things about him. The most famous one is “King Asoka Planted the Trees” (Ashokudu Chetlu Natinchenu in Telugu). I hope every Indian knows this phrase. If we ask some one about King Asoka, everyone says the same thing “Asoka Planted the Trees”. One more thing may be all the students know about him is “he was so disgusted by the cruelty and horror of Kalinga war that he renounced it. He would have no more of it. He adopted the peaceful doctrines of Buddhism.”

But before watching the movie Asoka, I never really thought why King Asoka planted the trees? Why he was so disgusted by the Kalinga War?

People say that He planted the trees because he turned into good King. He stop conquering the world after the Kalinga War because, it was very ferocious. So many people died, and blood of the soldiers flood in rivers etc...Historians say that Kalinga war is one of the biggest wars on the earth. So it might be true. But in movie Asoka he justified it in some other way. That suits much apt to King Asoka’s Quit for wars. History says Asoka probably had 4 wives. One among them is Kaurawiki. Movie says that, Asoka conquered the world because he is no more interested in living after he misses Kaurawiki. But Historians says that King Asoka had the desire of conquer the world and enlarge his reign just like his grand father Chandra Gupta Mourya.

Our movie Director tried to show King Asoka as merciful and good from the beginning which is not true. Historians guess that King Asoka might kill his own brothers to become successor of Bindusara, father of King Asoka. But I was amazed with King Asoka’s reign. May be he was the first or one of the Kings who ruled whole India along with Afghan, Pakistan, Bangladesh and some parts of Iran. I learned many facts about Asoka the Great.

I am ashamed of myself for not knowing about The Great Monarch Asoka till yesterday. He is the King whom all Indians never forget. Though he was ruler of 270B.C. we still remember him. We Indians are proud to say that we had Great emperor like Asoka. I red about his strength and got surprised. According to legends he was able to kill a lion or tiger with the help of a wood-rod only. He was also able to beat a number of weapon bearing soldiers with empty hands. Asoka was known for his sword-fighting. According to a myth when he was with his sword no one was able to go in front of him. He was very adventurous and this made him terrible. According to many historians Asoka was not a delicate prince, he was physically very rude and strong (often terrible). According to a story he was able to kill even a war elephant with the help of a knife.
Even our Indian National flag has the King Asoka’s wheel impression. Most of Indian currency coins have the 4 lions logo which was of King Asoka. I also got shocked with King Asoka’s transformation into Great King Asoka from Chand Asoka. After the Kaling War he pursued an official policy of nonviolence, ahimsa. Even the unnecessary slaughter or mutilation of animals was immediately abolished. Wildlife became protected by the king's law against sport hunting and branding. Limited hunting was permitted for consumption reasons but Asoka also promoted the concept of vegetarianism. Asoka also showed mercy to those imprisoned, allowing them leave for the outside a day of the year.

This was amazing right..? If you have some time go google about King Asoka you will come to know lot more facts. Thanks to Kishore for playing this movie. If you guys know more things about King Asoka please share with me.

Cheers
Jil

Some thing about Travelling

Hi There,

Today, I am fed up with my work. I am feeling little drowsy. I don’t know the reason but I am not willing to work today. Therefore I wrote the previous blog entry. After publishing it, my mind started counting the number of states I’ve visited in U.S. As I said it has been 2 yrs for me to stay in America, till now I’ve visited more than 10 states. My mind started to count the number of states I’ve visited in India. To my surprise the count came to 3. Man..! I have born in India, brought up there, stay there for 22 years. But I just visited 3 states in India. I started thinking the reason behind it. I ask myself Does our Indians don’t like to travel? May be the answer is yes.

When I was at the age of 12, our school arranged an excursion. They are planning a trip across Andhra Pradesh. I was always interested to travel from my childhood. I went to my mom and told her about my school excursion proposal. She simply denied it. She said, she is not gonna allow me to go any excursion. I tried to explain her many things but nothing really worked. My dad didn’t said no but he failed just like me to convince my mom. After then, I never dared to ask my mom about this kind of trips. This is the similar situation happened in most of my friends. We were unable to go to any trip. The reason my mom told me for her denial is little convincing to me at that time. She said “Son, you are a kid, you don’t know any thing and I don’t know about your teachers, I don’t know how well they take care of you guys. Hence I’ll never allow you children to this kind of trips.” Instead of this trip, she promised me that she will plan some tour in future with our family. But those plans remained as plans till today.

So, I think the first reason behind not traveling is our parents fear. May be most of the parents stop their children till 10th standard. But my mom stopped me even in my engineering days. She always scared to send me near oceans, rivers...But she failed to stop me to visit Karnataka. Situation demanded me to visit Bangalore to write GRE. Situation demanded me to visit Mysore to attend Air Force exam. Situation demanded me to visit Chennai to attend US Consulate. So what I understood with these incidents is our parents allow us only when there is some thing really needed to travel.

One more thing I noticed is, most of our Indian children will get handful of money only at the age of 23 if he gets any job right after his/her graduation. May be the average age is 20 at which every Indian child have handful of money. Till 23 or till you get any job u r dependent on your parents. Hence we can not plan any trip outside our state, because it costs lot of money.

One more problem we had is lack of good transportation. It takes almost 12 hours to reach Bangalore from Hyderabad unless you take some flight. But most of the Indian middle class people can’t afford flight charges; they don’t even dare to imagine a flight for some tour. They always plan some train journey which is cheaper and much comfort compared with all other ways of transportation. Train is a good option, but its very time consuming. Hence we can not expect weekend trips or long weekend trips. If we really planned to visit neighbor state, we need minimum of 5 days holiday. But I don’t think we can have 5 days holiday unless you are not working somewhere. Even if we get 5 days holiday, we don’t find a good company to plan a trip. If you plan a trip for a week let me tell you, it will cost minimum of 10,000/- just for one state trip. We Indians don’t like to spend this huge amount of money for a week day trip. Even if they can afford it, their next trip will be in next year. We just like to save the money. We people think these kinds of trips are just waste of money.

So our people don’t travel any where for site seeing, but they travel only to pilgrims. So it’s very hard to find an Indian who travelled all over India. Our people don’t like to travel once they grew older. Our people don’t like to travel once they got married and have few children. Our people don’t dare to travel till at the age of 15. We couldn’t make time to travel when we are as students. We couldn’t make time to travel when we are working in some company. So for an Indian, he won’t really get an opportunity sorry sorry...., we won’t really like to make opportunity to travel.

But I am able to travel or visit almost 10 states of America in 2 years because; I don’t have any one here who really can restrict me just like my mom. I can travel 600 miles in 6hrs (If we forget the speed limit), or 8 hrs (If we are within the speed limit) so I can make a trip within a weekend. I am staying with friends, everyone like to travel. We are not really worried about money because trip costs very little amount. I don’t need to plan 2 weeks prior to travel. I can hire a car very easily. Every thing is convenient here.

If we seriously desired to travel across whole America, I think it may take 2 months to cover all the 50 states. But if we desire in India, It may take more than 2 months to cover all the states (less than 50 states). I know why our Indian tourism is lacking behind the funds now, because of bad transportation and bad roads. How can a foreigner dare to come to India if we have this bad transportation? Very few foreigners come to India and our Indians don’t like to or don’t have time to travel; therefore our tourism is still behind the screen. I don’t think we can drive 120 KMPH speed continuously for an hour in our Indian roads. Though roads are fine, everyone scared about the pedestrians crossing the highways and animals come on to the highways.

If I go on speaking about our Indian roads, and our Indian traffic system that is going to be one more issue. Let me discuss it some other time. At the end I came up with the reason behind our not having travelling. But Still I have no Idea how to create interest in our Indians. May be it is difficult right...!! What do you guys think of it..??


(This content is just as per my knowledge. I spoke about common Indian man i.e. a typical middle class Indian. Because I believe more than 50% of Indian families are middle class. I may be wrong in any of the things I just spoke, or I may don’t have adequate knowledge in this area. I am not a real critic. So please excuse me if I am wrong, instead suggest me something good)

Request to My Mom:
I always speak about my mom if I write any entry like this. I don’t mean to criticize my mom or hurt my mom. I don’t want to show that my mom is wrong or something. She is typical Indian mom. I hope everyone’s mom is like my mom. I just took an example of my mom to make the things little clear. Mom I really love you. I may do the same thing if I am in your position. So don’t take it serious. You may be right in your situation. I can understand you well. I know you well. Love you so much mom. Excuse me if I hurt any of your feelings.

Cheers
Jilani

Get 2 Gather with my VBIT American Friends

Hey There..!

From last two, three days I am thinking what should I write in next post? I got few suggestions from few of my friends, everyone of them suggesting me something. Some times I end up with no thought. I ask few questions to myself, what was my intention while creating the blog. Am I on right track? Or did I lose my tempo. All these things disturbed me a lot. But at last I’ve decided to write whatever comes in my mind weather it is good or bad, don’t worry about it. From then I got few ideas.

Actually I should have been written this post little earlier. But because of my laziness and may be because of my disorder I am late. So are u people ready to read the post?

As I told you about my American VBIT friends in previous post...I am sticking to the same concept for now.

Once we 6 friends left VBIT, just 4 of us together at same place. But we never really got an opportunity to see Pradeep and Arun for 2 years. From the day one in America, I had a desire of get 2 gather. But it took almost 2 years to complete my desire. Though Venu, Sandeep, Aravind and I are together for one year, Venu and I left Sandeep and Aravind. So it has been very long time we didn’t meet with any one. But for this Christmas we got an opportunity for get 2 gather. Every one of us is free and every one of us is ready for it. As I am in exact centre of America, Everyone came to Chicago, IL. We gathered for almost 10 golden days. At last we couldn’t even know how these 10 memorable days passed.

We spent most our time in traveling. We covered almost 6 states. Our first trip was to IOWA, Venu stays there. On the day of Christmas, We know nothing is opened across America. Hence our plan is just to go to some theatre and watch some movie. We watch YES MAN movie in some theatre near to venu’s home. It was big entertainer for all of us. Most of us are big fans to the Hero Jim Carey. But I don’t know much about him that was the first time I saw him. Movie was very good, full length comedy entertainer hence we enjoyed a lot there. Right after that movie we people went to Temple. And we planned to go to Pioneer Village next day in Nebraska. It is just about 5 hrs away from Iowa. We expected much enjoyment at Pioneer Village. But unfortunately it is a big flop. Pioneer Village failed to reach our expectation. It was simply like a museum where we can know many things about the past. Though it was little disappointment for us, the journey was very interesting. For the first time in America I saw 75MPH speed limit in Nebraska. Up to then I just saw 70MPH speed limit in inter states and I thought that was maximum. But I got surprised with 75MPH speed limit. The Interstate was very great to travel. Road side is fully filled with agricultural fields which made us feel like we are in India. The Interstate is also not that curvy it’s almost a straight road along. But early in the morning road was completely filled with lot of fog which made driving very difficult. To be honest I couldn’t see any thing in front of me while driving. I blindly followed Venu’s car ahead of me. Hence the journey was thrilling but the destination was little disappointment for all of us. Mean while I’ve completed my wish to visit University of Nebraska, Lincoln. I got rejected my admission here for Masters. Hence I had a desire to see this university. It was O.K...One more interesting thing I found in I-35 was Cops. I found a cop for every 2 miles. Thank god for the first time I was in speed limit so got escaped from violation ticket.

As this trip is disaster and left lot of unsatisfaction in every one of us, we planned some thing real interesting that day. We planned to go to bowling on that night. Yeah, we got some thing real entertainment there. We played for almost 2 and half hours there and we were fully loaded with beer. Very hardly came to home from there and had some more beer. No one was in conscious; we don’t exactly know what we were speaking about. Next day every one had some hang over so we changed our plan from skewing to Casino.
Because we can go to Casino in night time, we can have some rest in day time. Though we have Casino’s near to Des Moines, Iowa, we are interested to go some good Casino far away from IOWA so that we can travel. We people are actually like to travel new places hence we planned to go to Kansas City; Missouri which is about 3 hours journey from Des Moines, Iowa. It was entertaining at Casino. Aravind, Venu and I played roulette, we didn’t get any money instead we loose a lot there. Sandeep, Pradeep and Arun played some other games but no one got a penny. We are not intended to get some thing from Casino, but we wanted some entertainment. Therefore we never worried about loosing money. The trip to Kansas City was little risky because the trip was in night and mean while there was heavy snow. Once again we couldn’t see any thing on road. But I managed to drive safely to home.

The next day we returned from Iowa, because I got to go to office for 2 days. My friends except Venu accompanied me to Chicago. When I went to office, Aravind, Sandeep, Pradeep, and Arun had few small trip to Indiana. Arun graduated from Purdue University, Indiana. Hence they went there. They also had few small trips across Chicago, IL. After 2 days as I got leave from office, we planned some thing real interesting on 31st December. We went to Wisconsin Dulles, Wisconsin which is about 3hrs from Chicago. We had real fun at water and theme parks at Wisconsin Dulles. But the journey was very horrible because of the Interstate construction. We spent till evening at Wisconsin and planning some thing for 31st Night. Arun, Aravind and Me wanted to go to some dance club or some club to welcome the New Year. But Pradeep and Sandeep were not really interested to go to these clubs. Pradeep suggested us to welcome the New Year from our home by playing cards. I said well, its ok but lets do some thing real interesting. Suddenly we wanted to give shock to Venu. I directed the car towards Iowa instead of Chicago. When we reach Iowa exactly at 00.00 Am, we were unable to give shock to Venu, because he gave us some surprise with fully loaded Red Label. We welcome New Year and greeted every possible friend on that night; we also had some cocktail in that night.

Next day everyone got ready and went to some Indian Restaurant in Des Moines. I don’t want to mention this restaurant but it was that horrible for which I can’t stop my self mentioning it here. To our surprise Venu said that All Indian Restaurants in Des Moines are much more disasters. After having Lunch we started our journey back to Chicago. We all know that trip is the last trip in our gather. So we did every possible kind of thing on that day. I also want to mention one more thing here, while coming back to Chicago from Iowa; we took exit some where nearer to Chicago for Pizza Hut. I left my heart there for 2 days to a girl who works in that pizza Hut. She was so beautiful and her I can’t even forget her smile now. I also want to mention one more thing here, while going to Iowa from Wisconsin Our GPS showed some new weird way. It was very horrible. To my fear, my friends started a topic on “BHOOT”. They started discussed about spirits and souls. I was very frightened as these guys notice that thing in my speech.

There comes our end of trip. One by one left me with sweet memories. During our trip, Pradeep, Arun, and Venu were very comic. But overall it was a great trip. We never forget these memories and our sweet friendship. Everyone back to their work now. But we still memorize those moments when we talk on phone. From this trip we got an opportunity to know about every one of us little closely. Thanks all of you my friends for making this trip successful and memorable. If possible we’ll plan many more get 2 gathers in future. Till then friends I’ll miss u.


Cheers
Jilani

My American VBIT Friends..

Hi There,
It has been 2 yrs for me in USA. Till today I can’t expect my life here without my friends. These friends are not the friends whom I got here. These are the fellows whom I was with in my Engineering in India. Though some of them are not that thick friends to me at that time, they are all now very great friends to me. Other than one, all of the others are good friends of mine. But one was really a great friend of mine in Engineering.
Now let me list those friends... The first one is Sandeep, and the followers are Pradeep, Venu, Aravind and Arun. Other Than Aravind are my Classmates as well.

Sandeep, Pradeep, and Arun are the first one to come to USA from our batch. Venu, Aravind and I are the followers to them in next sem. Venu, Aravind and I went to the same place where Sandeep is studying. From my first breathe in US, either Venu or Sandeep with me. Pradeep n Arun are always there for courage and for some strength. Aravind is like “Andarivadu”. I pity on him he struggled from day 1 in US. Just like Aravind, Venu and I struggled a lot in the early days. We don’t have legal accommodation, we don’t have any Phones, and we don’t have jobs. We don’t have right guidance. Unfortunately I don’t even know cooking. Hence food is also a problem to me.
From the first or second week I was in scarcity of money for some reasons (I don’t like to tell the reason.).

Though Venu didn’t get good support from any of us initially, he survived by god’s grace, especially with Aravind Company. Sandeep helped me a lot in finding the job, finding some legal accommodation, getting the phone contract. Though I don’t know cooking, he always cooks for me. He was always there in any kind of problem to me. He helped me to pay the room rent, he pay for my groceries etc... He was always there to me. I don’t know, I don’t even dare to think about my survival in Mobile, AL. He treated me like my mother; he treated me like my brother. He always suggested me good. I lived my life like a KING in Mobile, AL with Sandeeps Friendship. Venu and Aravind were supportive to us. When it seemed like things are working fine in AL, One bad KATRINA divided us. There was a situation, Venu and I need to transfer from the university to maintain the status in US. We just got transferred to Virginia (VA).

Here in Virginia Venu was almost like one more Sandeep to me. He was with me in every good and bad. He always took care of me. Though Sandeep is not physically present there in VA, He was always there in Phone. But Venu was very handy and supportive to me in both job, education, money n all.

Though Pradeep and Arun are not present with us physically... they used to call minimum once in a week. We used to be in conference for hours. We discuss about everyone’s problem and tried to solve them. Of course this conference is still going on. We all are like a family here. We support each other. We were together. Upon our successful completion of our graduation Venu and I came to Chicago, IL for job search. We both were marketed by same company. Fortunately Sandeep came to same Chicago but not to our company. Here once again Venu was real helpful to me in Chicago. Sandeep was supportive in Phone. Pradeep n Arun are remaining same on phone.

Venu got project in IOWA and he left. For the first time in USA I live for almost 1 month without any friends (Engineering Friends) company. I felt very bad. Though Sandeep is not far away from me, it proved very difficult for me to see him once in a week. This is because I always got tired with my project. But to my luck Sandeep switch his company to my company. I couldn’t find any loneliness after his arrival. He is still taking care of me even better than he had before.

When I got ill, I don’t know what to do. I have no idea how to get out of it. I didn’t get insurance yet, so I can’t go to the hospital. I can’t do self medication. It was big interruption in my project progress. Let me tell you, if Sandeep is not there, I may get fired from the project. And I am sure I couldn’t write this article here. I was completely speechless. As a son of Doctor Sandeep has little experience in serving the ill health. He was completely like my dad, took care of me 24*7. He still cooks for me.

I don’t know, I don’t even imagine my life here in USA without these friends. Dear Friends I really owe you guys. You were always helpful to me. You were always with me for every good and bad situation. I am really thankful to GOD for giving me friends like this. We were one...we will be one forever.

About Children..!!

Yesterday, after coming from office just sat and thinking what to do. Automatically my fingers went to EA SPORTS Cricket 07 and started playing it. Some time after I got bored with that game and feeling a kind of madness. My buddy Sandeep is searching for some movie. He said Jumps do u like to watch “FORBIDDEN KINGDOM”? I said lets watch it man, its very boring. I have no idea about this movie, but rating given around 9/10 some thing like that. It is Jackie Chan n Jet lie’s movie. Started watching it with no interest, but to my surprise! I don’t know when 2 hrs passed out. That movie was very interesting. After watching movie, my brain went to past. They are my schooling days; my friends are learning KARATE n KUNGFU. I went to mom first and asked her "Mom I want to learn Karate". She simply replied ‘NO’. I didn’t even ask her ‘WHY?’, because there is some ready made answer for my mom, "concentrate on u r studies, and u r in 10th Standard. You should score good marks". My dad says the same thing. AAh man!! My life is only for study. These guys never allow me to play; never allow me to learn Karate. Never allow me to do other than study. So Karate left as burning desire in me. I turned 24now, but still I never really got an opportunity or I couldn’t make opportunity to learn Karate. I didn’t mean to blame my parents, I love them a lot.

But I don’t understand why our parents do like this...!!! They always want us to study. My mom particularly never allowed me to play cricket in Play ground, which is very near by my home and all of my friends play everyday there. My mom is very scary about us. She used to think like “If I allow these children to play, they may get hurt r they may quarrel among them, they may fight, some thing may happen...” So she always restricted us to play Cricket in Play ground. But she allowed me to play with my neighbors and with my bros in front of my house. Its like gully cricket. I requested her many times to allow me to play in Playground. She always refused. Hence there is only one way I can play at play ground, cheat her. I used to tell her, "Mom I have some private class or I am going to my friends’ home or some lie according to the situation". But every time she caught me. She beat me many times. But I didn’t get change. My friends and me started bunk the school and go to some play ground to play Cricket. My Teachers never complained to my parents on this issue because the attendance register is always says Jilani is present in the class. I was the leader of the class. But this time my dad caught me while he is heading to office. Don’t ask me what happened next..?? But Jilani didn’t get change. I always grab every possible opportunity to lie with my mom to play cricket. Though I am doing these many tricks they never understood me. At the same time I failed to understand them.

Any way I’ve completed 10th standard, completed my intermediate. My mom never allowed my brothers and my self to play cricket in play ground. So automatically, I lost interest in playing cricket. But I’ve noticed that my younger brother is some thing similar to me. He is also trying to cheat my mom. But he doesn’t know the fact that his brother (i.e. me) passed the same situation and he can understand his tricks. I know he is cheating my mom just to play cricket.

I was in dilemma for few days, shall I inform my mom about his tricks or shall I ignore.
I was the person who is doing the same tricks to play cricket, now how can I inform to my mom. But I am the eldest son of the family, I should inform her. I thought for 2 days n went to my mom n dad told them, Let Sajeed Play cricket every day. Mom n dad its not good that u r son is cheating u. If you people stop us, we will find some wrong way. So, please allow him to play. Nothing will happen; I’ll take care if any thing goes wrong. I told them “You people always asked me to study, but how many marks I got?” They r not completely convinced but they allowed my brother to play cricket then on wards.

Hence I’ll request every single parent to think over it. Let your children Play. Don’t always tell them to study. Whatever they study in their childhood, that is not gonna help them in future. They’ll forget all of that non-sense. For sure, they’ll learn the things in future. For example I’ve learnt Ohm’s Law in 8th standard. But I don’t remember that law till Intermediate. I once again learnt it in Intermediate, forgot it again. I learnt it in Engineering (Of course I remember it now). Similarly many things got repeated in higher studies. So don’t let our children work like a donkey carrying a bag of 10kgs.Let them do whatever they like to do. Don’t ask them to do u r interests. That is their life, let them live. You are already living u r life. I don’t know in 6th standard what these children learn something in IIT standard? Now a days there are many IIT foundation schools are coming. Children are not even interested to study normal subject. What the hell these guys teach at the age of 12 in their schools in IIT standard?

I know this generation is much faster. But whatever the generation is a child is child. No one likes to sit in the school from morning 8 to evening 8 at the age of 8. Education is important. But only education is not important. Holidays are reducing day by day. When I was a kid, my Grandpa used to tell me these many stories. If I went to village (My grandpa’s hometown), I used to play every possible game. If some big festivals like Dussera, Sankranti Comes we used to get 10 days as holidays. I don’t think in these days this is the thing happening. The situation is like as soon as some one born, he needs to compete with some other. This is not acceptable.

By thinking all these things...I went into sleep. (Time was 11.03 PM)....I can hear with low voice some cool song “tera naa hona” from Jab we met.

Few things abt India, and Request to People..!!

When I was a kid, I had a passion to become a scientist after reading the life stories of few scientists. So, I went to my teacher n told him about my desire. He asked me “Y do u want to be a Scientist?” Then I said I want to do some thing to people. Some useful thing to the people so that every one can remember me for long time n if possible there should be some topic in text books about me. He said well, it’s a great Idea, so work on it. But to become a scientist u need to think little bit different. Don’t look at the problem as a common man but look it like an emerging scientist. Whenever something comes into u r mind simply ask few questions to u r self ...WHY, WHAT, n HOW...It gave me some Idea. And after that every time I saw something I started thinking What, Why n How.

When I look into the text books I got plenty of questions how and why...Unfortunately my teachers are not 100 % to clarify my doubts...may be my questions were not valid.

So I stop thinking about my subject but I started thinking about India while learning Social Studies... Why our India is like this? Why we still follow some one else procedure? Why can’t we become role models? Why India is still Developing Country? Why Indian Rupee is that low? What went wrong in India? In that tiny age I don’t know have answers to these questions, even if I ask these question to my Dad he simply says “Beta too to aur bhi bhaccha Hai, Iske liye sochne ki umar nai tera...jao pado likho ya naito Khelo”. Ahh Dad, Come on...!! He always gave me the same answer. I asked my cousin...He tried to explain me but my dad was correct I was unable to understand politics, Economy, in that age. Those questions remained as questions in my mind for lots of days. My mom used to say “SON U WILL GET THE ANSWERS TO U R QUESTIONS ONCE U GREW OLDER...FOR FEW QUESTIONS THERE IS SOME AGE CONSTRAINT”. I believe in her Words...to my surprise I am getting answers to those questions with time and with the age. But I am still confused, what exactly I can do to India. How I can get India out of this Situation?

The best answer is to entering into politics and serve India...!! But is it possible for an ordinary man to enter in Politics...That too in India. I saw huge people who lost their wealth n health in that Race. What time I can go to some CM position or some other commanding position and Rule a state. May be it is possible in Dreams.

So, Politics in not a best Idea for me...!!

We can do service without entering into politics... But it needs lots of money and lots of support from Government of India. Otherwise it is almost impossible to serve the poor.

I got only choice now just motivate the people. Make the people literate. Tell them what is happening around. Clear them what we need exactly.

So First step India need is real education, which should guide a common man. He should able to know what is happening around the globe and what our position in world is. Where we are in the world, Y India is lagging behind many of the nations. What’s wrong with us?

Unfortunately this thing is not gonna happen in near future. Even our people are literate most of us r selfish. We don’t want to involve in any of the acts around. We don’t even dare to say it’s wrong. It’s not completely their mistake of course. They have their family n they need to take care of lot of things.

But if everyone of us is like this, who will change India...? And when will it become a Developed Nation? It will never become a developed nation by itself until n unless we make it.

India has lots of youth power. Only youth can change India. Hence I request youth of India to leave their selfishness and let’s try to make India better. Let me tell u if we miss this chance, India will be like developing Country forever.

We first need to Change the System of India. Let every one educated. Forget about the oldies. Our villagers need to be educated. Because 80% of India is Villages. And illiteracy present there in villages itself. Make them educated. There so many silly sentiments in our villages. They are still in 18^th century. Get them out of that. Need to provide all the facilities in villages. There should not be any difference between a villager and a city guy which is present in India till now. There should be new system in India.

“Dignity of labor”, I’ve studied about this word in my Engineering. But I understood the meaning of it, once I came to America. We study about it...but we will never follow it, if we follow “Dignity of labor” in India People say “R u a fool, u r with the labor..?” This need to be changed.

May be it is sensitive topic if I speak about reservations. But frankly I am telling this causing India to step down always...There should not be any reservations, if every one of us are equal. We say in words “we are one, we will be one” but we will never follow it. We pledge “All Indians are my brothers n sisters”. But we won’t follow it.

May be our Democracy is one more problem to us. We worry about people and leave the terrorists who are causing much damage to the people whom we worried about. If we are communists like Russia, may be India is not like the India we are looking at. I don’t encourage Communism but I wish we would not worry about few ethics n few rules in certain things like terrorism.

Our way of education need to be changed. Let me tell u, I never used any thing I’ve studied in my real life. I’ve studied about Inflation in 8^th Standard. But when I turn 23, I still don’t know what Inflation is? When I saw newspaper head lines “Indian Inflation is down to 13%”. Oh man, what the hell is this Inflation? I’ve googled it and came to know that oh I’ve studied about it in 8^th standard. I don’t know any traffic sense though I’ve studied about it again in 8^th standard. I don’t have any idea of longitude and latitude at the age of 20 though I’ve studied it in 6^th standard. Our National Language is Hindi, but I am not sure how many of us at least understand that language. We’ve studied about the responsibilities of a collector, a minister. We’ve studied about MP n MLA. But Cine Actor Mahesh Babu at the age of 30 doesn’t know the difference between MP n MLA. I didn’t mean to criticize Mahesh Babu. But I am criticizing our education system. Our text books still says about 1990-91 population count. Many of my friends of course me don’t know how many states does India have right now. Our traffic police don’t know all traffic rules. They don’t know what passing zone is. They have no Idea what a dotted line indicates. But they know how to pick pocket you.

Trust me; our education system is not going to help us to learn life. It’s only to get some ranks and publish u r photo in the news paper. I got 120/120 in chemistry in Intermediate. But I still don’t know what exactly molecule is?

Our Politics, our Corruption, our Illiteracy, our silly sentiments, our selfishness, and our mindset will never make India a Developed nation. It will be a developing nation until we leave all of them.

First thing or the First step to make India a Developed nation is to make everyone educated.

Government of India, I request ...In fact, I beg you please take required actions to make every Indian educated in right way.

(I wrote these things with the knowledge I have. If any of the thing is wrong there please execuse me. and suggest me some corrections i need to make.)

Cheers

Jilani